Showing posts with label Annie Bell. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Annie Bell. Show all posts

Thursday, 16 May 2019

Bread Tags - a Poetry and WriteNight Story

A few months back, I attended Colchester WriteNight for their session on performance poetry.

Led by Mark Brayley, this was a truly fascinating session. Mark spoke about how it is possible to convey very powerful emotions through the description of objects. He provided us with a selection of objects, including an hourglass, a clockwork robot, a cocktail shaker and others. He then instructed us to select one and write down any ideas, which came into our heads.

Next, we were asked to construct a poem, using some of those ideas.  

Strangely enough, I found myself obsessing on the subject of bread tags - the square plastic things that we used to close bread packets with, back in the 1980s, before we had to put up with the stupid sticky ones, which always seal themselves shut, and how I could use those to write about a memory that was painful for me.

This is what I came up with.

Bread Tags
by Annie Bell

She picks at the glued up tie on the bread,
stubbornly sticking. Her toast dreams are dead.
The past creeps forwards; memory awakes.
An abandoned solution - such a mistake.
An ancient invention of plastic perfection:
Flat, square, with a hole and the corners lopped off.

Every piece of plastic that ever existed, still exists.
David Attenborough drones from the TV.

Her bread liberated;
Her toast duly plated;
Her hunger soon sated.
The flavour of Marmite and toast soothes her soul.
She thinks about bread tags:
His wonderful bread tags: 
The collection of thousands he kept in a drawer.
Each one representing Marmite toast
From that comfortable host,
Who hosts with toast no more.

Every piece of plastic that ever existed, still exists.
David Attenborough drones from the TV.

But he does not
Will not.
Not ever again,
Except in her memory.

 

The event I was writing about was the death of my Grandad, when I was sixteen. He always used to make us - his large collection of grandchildren - round after round of Marmite toast, until the bread ran out.

After his death, we found that he had a box filled with old bread tags in his kitchen drawer, which he had collected over the decades. I've always wondered what he was collecting them for.

It was wonderful to be able to convey my own sadness in a way that is so much more universal than what I might ordinarily have written. The session really opened my eyes to different ways of expressing emotions and I would like to explore this concept much more.

WriteNight meets on the fourth Monday of every month, 7:30pm - 9:30pm at the Maker Space, Trinity Street, Colchester.

For more information, please follow them on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/writenight/ or Twitter: @ColWriteNight 

© Annie Bell, 2019

Tuesday, 7 May 2019

Berechurch Mysteries - a 'Jane's Walk'


Why do you call me 'The Lady in White'?
Why do you act like I give you a fright?
Why do you see only this satin dress?
Can you not see that I look like a mess?


*

October 1845. Charlotte White wakes to find that all is not well and life, or death, will never be the same again.

Haunted by a devastating secret and compelled by powers beyond her comprehension, Charlotte must find a way to escape from the ghosts of her past, present and future, together with a torn white dress that holds brutal significance.

Life and death are, indeed, strange masters. 


'Charlotte - The Lady in White' is my novel, based on the true story of Charlotte White, nee Smyth, late of Berechurch Hall, Colchester, Essex: a lady, who is said to haunt the former grounds of Berechurch Hall, to this day.



On Sunday last, as part of the annual 'Jane's Walks', my friend Wayne Baker organised a walk around the Berechurch area of Colchester, taking in various aspects of local history and local issues.

As part of this event, I was asked  to reprise my role as Charlotte. I was able to surprise the crowd off 33 walkers, by making a few appearances along the way. The first was at 'Charlotte's Pool' - a very beautiful location in Friday Woods. The second was at outside the Audley Chapel of St Michael's Church, off Berechurch Hall Road, where Charlotte was buried and her burial monument still remains. 

There, outside the Audley Chapel, I surprised the walkers, by appearing again and performing 'My Past Existence': the poem, which opens my novel.




After this, inside the Audley Chapel, I read an extract from 'Charlotte - The Lady in White', set in the Audley Chapel itself.

The walk appeared to be well received by the walkers, the weather behaved itself and Charlotte's story was shared, once more, with the people of Colchester.

Photo courtesy of Belinda Baker


For more information on Charlotte White and my adventures in researching her life, please read the following past posts from this blog.

Jane's Walk - Monkwick Memories - A Charlotte White Story
Charlottes Pool - History and Legend
More on Charlotte White nee Smyth
My Past Existence - Charlotte White nee Smyth
Charlotte's Pool
Charlotte Exhibition Preparation Part 2
Charlotte Exhibition Preparation Part 1
Charlotte's Pool Colchester



© Annie Bell 2019

Monday, 7 May 2018

Jane's Walk - Monkwick Memories - A Charlotte White Story


Regular followers of this blog will already be aware of the extensive research I have carried out, into the life and afterlife of Charlotte White, nee Smyth, the daughter of prominent Colchester MP Sir George Henry Smyth, who lived at Berechurch Hall, Colchester in the first half of the 19th Century. Links to previous posts can be found at the end of this post.

Yesterday, I was honoured to have been asked to play a role in a 'Jane's Walk' that was taking place in Monkwick, Colchester. The walk promised to include information about a range of local history, including some of the places connected with Charlotte's life. 

It was a wonderful, sunny afternoon, just perfect for a stroll. Those, who had joined the walk, enjoyed stories of Monkwick's history and life growing up there, from Cllr Dave Harris and Wayne Baker. Please click here for images from the day.

When, about halfway through the walk, the participants were led into the gates of St Michael's Church, they were in for a surprise. 


They walked up the path, through the churchyard and into the Audley Chapel, where they were able to take in the various memorials and interesting architectural features, which have been preserved by the Churches Conservation Trust. One of those memorials is Charlotte White's memorial - a beautiful white marble relief sculpture with a wonderful epitaph.


As the walkers stepped out of the chapel, they were greeted by 'Charlotte' - me fully dressed as Charlotte and in character. 


I performed my poem 'My Past Existence', which expresses Charlotte's frustration at being sought as a ghost. It is the opening to my novel. 

To see the performance, please click below.

 

After I had disappeared, the walk continued, through Charlotte's Grove, until they reached the site where Charlotte's pool once stood. There, they were joined by Charlotte once more.




The group then listened, as I read them an extract from 'Charlotte - The Lady in White', in which it is her 10th birthday and her Daddy takes her into the woods and shows her the grotto he has had built for her. A video of the reading is below.


It was a real honour to be given the opportunity to bring some aspects of Charlotte's story and history to life in such a way and I owe Wayne Baker many thanks for giving me the opportunity to contribute to the walk he organised.


A note on the novel itself

Despite my hideous neglect of this page over the past two years, I have been working on my writing quietly and I am proud to be able to announce that I have a completed manuscript for 'Charlotte - The Lady in White'. Now, I am in the process of seeking an agent and / or publisher, so that her story can finally be released for the world to see. If anyone can help, please get in touch! 
Annie Bell on Facebook 
Annie Bell on Twitter

For previous posts on the subject of Charlotte White (nee Smyth) please see the links below.

Charlottes Pool - History and Legend
More on Charlotte White nee Smyth
My Past Existence - Charlotte White nee Smyth
Charlotte's Pool
Charlotte Exhibition Preparation Part 2
Charlotte Exhibition Preparation Part 1
Charlotte's Pool Colchester


© Annie Bell 2018

To purchase a copy of 'Charlotte -The Lady in White' a novel based on the Life of Charlotte White, nee Smyth, please click the link below


Tuesday, 16 August 2016

Remembering Uncle Ivan - an extract from Midnight

Sadly, on August 5th 2016, my beloved Uncle Ivan passed away, aged 88.

Like all of my Great Uncles, Uncle Ivan was a real character and a talented man. He was the keenest gardener I have ever met and he worked in people's gardens well into his eighties. His knowledge of plants was nothing less than encyclopaedic and his garden stands a testimony to his and my Auntie Hazel's skills and green fingers.

When he wasn't busy with his plants, Uncle Ivan loved to paint. I remember him showing me his painting room, which was piled high with beautiful paintings he had produced over the years. My personal favourites were his tree silhouettes against sunsets.   



 
Another vivid memory is of Uncle Ivan dancing his socks off at every opportunity, be it a party or a karaoke night. He loved to dance and was always a lot of fun!








I have very fond memories from a few years ago, of searching for haunted grottos in Friday Woods with Uncle Ivan and Auntie Hazel. We got lost in the woods, caught in a rainstorm and had a really entertaining and enjoyable afternoon together, laughing and joking. That's how it was every time I visited them. 

The sixth child of 8, my Grandad's little brother, Uncle Ivan was, like his brother Cecil, a mischievous child, who got into plenty of scrapes along with his brothers and who loved his sister Joan to pieces. The novel I am working on - 'Midnight' will tell the story of the effect World War II had on their lives. The stories he and his siblings shared with me, of those times are unbelievable. When I decided to write the novel, his enthusiasm for sharing his stories of life during that time was obvious and he seemed to enjoy the extracts I was able to share with him.

My Uncle Ivan was a joyous, cheerful and delightful soul, with an enormous capacity for fun and laughter and I loved him very much. As a family, we all loved him very much. He will be sorely missed by all who knew him. 




A few years ago, when we lost Uncle Cecil, I shared an abridged version of an extract from 'Midnight'. It is the tale of one of the many adventures shared by this pair of naughty boys. It's completely based in fact - you couldn't make it up! I wanted to do the same for Uncle Ivan. I hope you enjoy it.


Extract from 'Midnight'

by Annie Bell 

Left to Right - Cecil, Michael, Ivan
The sun beamed into the kitchen, as Cecil and Ivan gulped down their porridge (Cecil 'Hollow Legs' was already on his second bowl). I spotted them nudging each other, seeming a bit too quiet.


What are you two up to?” I asked.


Nothing,” Cecil beamed.


“Can we go out for the day?” Ivan blurted out. “We want to go to Brightlingsea.” 

Cecil scowled at him, adding “We haven't been there for ages.”


“I've told you before,” I scolded. “The coast is off limits, cause of the war.” I felt bad. They had been pestering for ages about the beach but what could I do?


“Mum...” they whined, smiling innocently, as though butter would never soften in their mouths, let alone melt. 

“No.” I insisted. “Mention it again, you'll have your father to answer to.”


“Humph. Ok … Can we play with Dennis instead?” asked Cecil.


“Yeah. That'd be fun,” nodded Ivan. “We're not stupid enough to go to the beach after what you just said, Mum.” 

I waved them off, despite my better judgement, and carried on peeling potatoes.


I later discovered that, within an hour of leaving, the boys scampered along the train tracks to Brightlingsea. As their naughty plan drew to its climax, they raced onto a swing bridge behind a train, risking being tipped headfirst into the estuary mud. How they weren't caught sooner, I will never know.


Reaching their destination, they ran to the now heavily altered beach. Dense structures of scaffolding, barbed wire and other unfriendly objects scarred the waterline. Our disobedient heroes ignored the warnings and raced off, dodging between the defences as if they were driftwood.


“Let's go crabbing!” cried Cecil joyfully, tramping through the sand. “We can practise forts too. Then we can beat the others, when the war is over!” As Cecil sped off, Ivan hesitated, my warnings ringing in his ears. “Come on Ivan!” yelled Cecil. “I want to catch a massive crab.” At that, Ivan forgot his concerns and followed, giggling, as Cecil's voice was drowned out by the roar of a Wellington bomber. They both stared skywards, their mouths hanging open as it flew over. Unfortunately, the Merlin engines stifled the frantic warnings from a soldier, who had just spotted them from a bunker. Too late, they heard him.


“STOP!” he yelled. “Minefield! Don't move!”


Both boys froze. My words echoed in their ears louder than ever but it was too late. Horrified, Ivan glanced at Cecil. Cecil stared back, lip quivering; tears welling up in his eyes. How would they get out of this scrape?


“Grab that stick!” the soldier barked at Ivan. “Prod the ground at an angle and move slowly towards him. When you're together, come to me.” Ivan nodded and tentatively inched forward. Cecil flinched each time the stick pierced the sand.


After several painful minutes, Ivan reached Cecil. 

“Walk in his footsteps,” the soldier told Cecil, as Ivan continued prodding the ground.  Both were scarcely breathing as they crept back towards safety. 

Ten feet from the soldier, “Oh my God!” Ivan shrank backwards, knocking Cecil off balance.


“What? What?” Cecil steadied himself.


“Mine!”


“Oh my God, Ivan! What do we do?”


“Look behind you. See the footprints?” the soldier advised. “Step back carefully and go round it.” Cecil stepped exactly into the marks in the sand. Ivan followed carefully. He prodded the ground a foot to the right of the mine. The coast was clear. A few breathless minutes later, they reached the sea wall.


The soldier, now purple with rage, grabbed the boys' ears and dragged them kicking and screaming to the police station, depositing them with the constable.


“Found these two playing in the minefield,” he scowled at the two miscreants. “Lock 'em up and throw away the key!” Ivan and Cecil, terrified at the thought of rotting in jail, both burst into tears.


“I'm so sorry,” Cecil sobbed. “Please don't put us in prison. Please.”


“No, please don't,” Ivan wailed. “We didn't know. Sorry.”


Hmm …” the constable pondered. “Get in the car, before I change my mind.” He followed them out to his police car and drove them home, to tell me what they had done; none the worse for their ordeal but eating humble pie like there was no tomorrow. 

© Annie Bell 2013

Wednesday, 11 November 2015

to Kenneth George Bell - a poem of remembrance

Being Armistice Day, I wanted to share a poem about a member of my family, who gave his life in World War II - my Great Uncle Ken.

In 2008, I took a trip to northern Germany to find the grave of my Grandad's eldest brother - Ken, of the Welch Regiment, who was killed in action on April 10th 1945, aged 27, near to Soltau, where he is now buried in Becklingen War Cemetery

In honour of his memory, I wrote him a poem, which I left on his grave and which is laid out below.


To Kenneth George Bell


You had parents and brothers, a sister, no wife
On the day that you gave, for your country, your life
You gave up your future and never grew old
Never had any children – a destiny sold

The result was a future for all of your kin
But the rest of your life would never begin
You were never forgotten and always were missed
More than six decades later you do still exist,
In the thoughts and the memories of those who remain
In the tears in their eyes when they hear your name
And when bugles are playing that haunting refrain
To remind us of sacrifice made time and again 

© Annie Bell 2015


Grave inscription:

 Though absent, you are ever near
Still loved and missed and ever dear